Current mood – apprehensive
Current music – ‘L’Exécution’ by Angelo Badalamenti
I think the strict definition of whistle blowing involves one incriminating oneself in the act of exposing the wrongdoings of one’s management. Or having to have done something covert or underhand to expose that wrongdoing.
Fortunately or unfortunately, depending on your point of view, I have done none of those things. It appears as though my boss has made a factually incorrect declaration of interest to the Governing Body. All I have done is brought to light publicly available information (including her own website FFS) which contradicts the statement she has made.
Worse are the implications of her actions. We could be looking at something ranging from stupidity to incompetence right through to misappropriation of funds to fraud. And that’s a sackable offence, even criminal. Now I won’t be leading on any investigation. I have passed that responsibility to others. I can now let events take their course and allow my emotional roller coaster come to a halt and let me off.
But nevertheless it still all feels a bit weird. I’ve been rehearsing answers to questions for when I am carpeted on Monday morning as I expect to be. I have rerun the events of the past few months over and over in my head and I keep coming back to the same place – I didn’t make her do what she did, people need to be held accountable for what they have done, I have no personal axe to grind here (I’ve resigned from the school) and how would I have felt if had done nothing at all. What’s more, my child and my friend’s children attend the school and deserve the best possible school leadership.
So you toss that lot together and you can begin to understand how my emotions are a bit of a salad tonight.